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it's friday and i'm up late because i have no school tomorrow. no training either. happy day i guess. training's real different without good ole pu jiaolian. i miss him :( sigh. xuehai is just really.. odd. he doesn't understand the meaning of "wo de ji rou SHOU SHANG le" (my muscles are injured). maybe it's the china mentality. maybe good ole pu jiaolian had more coaching experience so he knew what it means NOT to burn a poor ole athlete out. everytime i tell him my muscles hurt, he gives me that theyhurtsowhat?! look. and then i feel so horrid. he makes me feel bad to be injured. as if i'm not already demoralized enough. oh darn. okay but his swim trng sessions are a little better. cos he talks more to us. more motivating and encouraging. i don't know lah. sigh. i guess i'll just have to keep on telling him "wo de ji rou SHOU SHANG le" over and over. i piah-ed so hard for tues,weds,thurs sessions that today i was just slacking like crap.
ttdurai will get some friends next week. 310-ers, wait and see! mwahah.
chem physics and ss are over. the tests this week i mean. week one is over. oh dear.
oh yes i totally made a fool out of myself during congress. AHHH. that was horrid. i doubt anyone got what i was saying. cos when michelle repeated my point it wasn't completely accurate. i was so nervous! my legs were shaking like crap. i swear my knees almost buckled. haha it's so much scarier than i thought it would be. the whole level?! plus teachers?! ahh i thought PIT elections were bad enough. ahha then i had to explain and i lost my train of thought! i have shortterm memory you see. oh no and i still feel so terrible about it. did i make sense up there? were my points okay? actually for the record- i meant that PTs should be given before the unit is taught, but then they should be due a certain specified period of time after the unit has been taught. means there should be like a week or two of buffer for us to do it AFTER the chpt's been taught. sth like that. sigh. and that whole following planned schedules thing.. rahh. i think i wanted to say that they should adhere to lesson plans but then in the case where there is a delay, they should be more flexible! okay enough. i'm hammering myself over congress which i am not really a big part of. i am the girl who rambled. oh no.
tired. tired. tired.
rs is killing me. how the heck am i gonna collate those surveys? and those are excluding the ones that NEEd to be given out but can't be given out yet. damn the schools who rejected me, damn the unprinted instructions and damn the what? ahha. can't rmb. pyggy-malion.
ah shit. bike training on sun. i hate it i hate it i hate it :( i am so slow.